So, how am I doing today? I get that question a lot. I don't mind it because I know it is asked with sincere concern. Sometimes I just can't talk about it so I usually answer "I'm doing okay". Truthfully I feel crappy most of the time but I feel guilty for not doing things I should be doing so I mostly go through the motions.

So, here it is in all the honesty I can muster....How do I feel?

Sad and distracted and a little lonely. I miss my buddy that helped around the house and did fun things with me during the day. I get sad when I fold laundry and there's no pile of his clothes to put away. My family seems so small and I feel like I have a lot of time on my hands. My brain doesn't seem to work as well as it did and I find myself forgetting a lot and having a hard time concentrating.

Some days I feel motivated to do a bunch of stuff and stay distracted and other days I don't feel like doing anything-not even eating. I spent 6 hours yesterday watching "Top Chef"...what a waste of time, but honestly I didn't fee like doing anything else.

A little too much honesty? Yeah, I think so, and I'll probably be embarrassed later that I wrote this, but for those of you who want to know...there it is.

Thanks for caring and asking. You can keep asking-I don't mind-if you don't mind a completely honest answer once in a while.